Tonight was the night I've been dreading for a week! Tonight arrived and all day, I felt sick with trepidation and dread, if I survived tonight it would be a miracle, at one stage, I was prepared to find some excuse to leave the house before 4pm and not arrive home until midnight, but I couldn't think of anything.
What could be so dreadful? The family BBQ with MIL that's what!
I just knew something dreadful would happen, that the past would be dragged up and tears would be shed. WHAT I didn't think would happen was that yes there would be tears, but not tears of dread.
I HAD THE BEST NIGHT EVER! there, it's out! yes it's official, I had and according to everyone else who was here, it was officially the best night EVER! All the kids, (and when I say all I mean all lol) couldn't have been better behaved if they had tried, Aaryn entertained his Nan with his little stories (and well, to be honest, he had quite a few!) Cameron gave lots of hugs, the grandies were well, just as cute as grandies can be! AND to top it all off, my MIL took me to one side and told me I had done a fantastic job in raising my little family and that she wished she hadn't been so stubborn all these years and gotten to know my kids. I was a little gobsmacked.
To say things haven't been too, well, joyful between Gary and his mother for almost 2 decades is an understatement BUT tonight, bridges were burnt, and a family re-united. LOTS OF HAPPINESS in our little home and I'm feeling fantastic about it all.
The most momentous bit of the night was purely accidental, for some reason, I found myself all alone in the lounge room with MIL and we just talked and talked about just about everything and she (I don't know if it was her malibu and milk or my wine ROFL) just gave me a hug and said, I've alway's liked you, I was just too bloody stuck in my own damn little world to admit it. NOW that was a kick in the guts, I don't know how i held myself together, I just smiled and said, well your a long time dead, so you've got lots of time to get to know your little family don't you! (I always manage to say something stupid, just thank you would have sufficed lol)
I really cant explain how I'm feeling right now, a little euphoric I guess. My kids were just so happy to have their nan visit with them, We had a real whole family here, Nan, their aunty was here (to whom, i'm forever grateful for her patience with MIL and Gary, in getting this re-union a happening), and a cousin who the kids had never met before and yet they all got on like a house on fire (Gary's eldest sisters daughter, she's 34) Tina and hayley vaguely remembered her, from childhood, but that may be through photo's!
All I know is that right now, I have never felt happier, with the way tonight went, Even the son-in-laws got on! which in itself is a miracle LOL, I think my new SUCK IT UP attitude is beginning to rub off on everyone!
The count-down is on until the next gathering, which I think will be for Aaryn's birthday (well that's what MIL said anyway LOL) but it may also be as soon as Friday as we have visitors arriving from Tassie for a few days (YES IT IS NEXT WEEK, I DO HAVE THE RIGHT DATE THIS TIME).
and the most naughtiest thing? not one photo was taken NOT ONE! in fact, no-one wanted to take pics, Wallea had her new Digital SLR (yes the one EXACTLY like the one I have on layby) and i was the only person who used it to take one shot of her LOL and usually that child has her camera in everyone's face and yet tonight, we just didn't feel the need to take pics, we just needed to mend bridges!
OOOH i just cant wait for the engagement party in 3 weeks if tonight is anything to go by...i just wish my brother could be here to 'share the love too'!! HINT HINT HINT LOL...