A new month!

August the 1st~ a special day in our house, it is my Dad's birthday! well, it used to be a special day Today it's a very down and depressing day. Do you have birthday's in heaven? I like to think you do, complete with whatever sort of cake is your favorite, (perhaps angel cake?). Today is the first birthday i've not been able to ring my Dad to wish him health and happiness. I found his birthday present yesterday, all wrapped, card signed, even in it's parcel, just waiting to be posted. This year I thought I would be super organised and have his present all ready to be posted so it would get to him in plenty of time. Needless to say, I will never be organised again! I shed a couple of tears when i found his parcel, for goodness sake, it's only a pair of Y-front old man undies (too much info?? going to have nightmares now??), 2 pairs of pj's and a nice pair of warm socks, BUT that's what he needed, I think I will take them to the nursing home down the road, still wrapped and ask if there is a little old man (dad was really little about the size of an 11yr old boy at the end) who could use a little present. I could take them back to the shop but I just cant bring myself to do that. The same as I cant just simply cant bring myself to remove dad's mobile number from my phone, in doing that, i'm accepting the fact that Dad is gone and to be honest, I'm not ready to do that yet. I'm trying to cheer myself up a bit with a little memory thing happening in my head. Dad's twin brother, died a couple of months before their 4th birthday, This birthday is the first one they are sharing together for 75yrs! I like to think of the 2 of them up there, with their parents, finally all together having a huge party!!! My Dad had a theory, that if you lived to see another birthday, you should live another year, so not to waste it! I guess that's why he died, when he did 5 weeks before his birthday, so the year wasn't wasted. he probably thought OMG if i have another birthday, I'll be bloody stuck here for another year!!! That's the logic of the Irish LOL..I like his logic!! SO..Happy Birthday Dad and also to Patrick his twin!!! 79 years!!!! I love you and miss you so very much!!